This is our last Christmas just the two of us. Unless Sophia decides to make her debut tonight or tomorrow, that is. Next year we will have a toddler who will be fast approaching a year old. No present or Christmas tree ornament will be safe. I will be waking up at 5am just to do Christmas baking (instead of 7am like I did today). We will spending Christmas Eve nights putting together insanely complicated kid things that even IKEA cannot compete with in terms of parts and pieces and instructions. So much will be different next year. As I am typing this there is this amazing tiny person rolling around in my stomach trying to wiggle to find more room (she is definitely cramped in there) or just saying good morning to me. Justin asked me the other day if I thought it would be weird to not be pregnant. As I thought about it I got a little sad bc I love feeling her roll around. I love that right now I do not have to share my baby girl with anyone. She is all mine and I am all hers. I provide everything she needs and she knows that all her needs are met by me. I am all she knows. And I cherish that. I am not a very good baby sharer. I don't like to let someone else hold a baby that I am holding. I don't offer to let others hold a baby I am holding. I will try to be better about sharing my daughter though. But I know it will be a struggle at first. This Christmas she is still all mine and mine alone though :)
Awww Sarah! You will be a wonderful Mommy! And by now you may already be holding your baby girl. I pray that you have quick and easy labor and a healthy you and baby girl! The best piece of advice I can give you or really just words to remember is "This too shall pass!" You will understand what I mean after every transition you go through- the good and the bad. I, too, had a hard time sharing Evan. I remember those last days with him in my belly and it was such a special time! You will always have those memories- only you! And don't be surprised if you find yourself still rubbing your now empty belly! It took me a while to stop! HA HA! I can't wait to see pictures of your beautiful Sophia! God Bless your sweet family!! :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Amy! I feel silly sometimes because I cannot wait to see her with Justin amd with her grandparents so it seems silly to feel like I won't be able to share her. And so begins the first time mommy problems :)
DeleteI hope you guys are doing great. Evan is such a cutie.